Trying to figure it all out.........

Since entering the adoption world, adoption is ALWAYS on my mind and on my heart. I am always checking out different adoption agencies sites, why you ask?? I can not answer that. I am intrigued when I find a blog about adoption, see someone talking about adoption or hearing that another family is jumping in the adoption pool.

So I have been scratching my head trying to figure out what my purpose is. I guess when Josh and I started trying to have a biological child and that not working the thought of adoption just came to us naturally and I was at peace with not being able to have a biological child because I saw that we were ment to adopt, that there was a baby out there that was ment to be in our family and ment to be ours. Well that time has came and gone and now we sit with 2 beautiful little girls.

But I still sit here thinking that I need to "pay it forward". I am always willing to speak to people about the myths and truths of adoption, kinda holding their hand and guiding them through the clouds, helping them understand the process. But for some reason for me, that does not seem like enough. There has to be more out there for me, I am ment to do more....but what is it??

Well today I took the first step. As I was looking at some of the blogs that I follow there was one, one that caught my eye and the family was having a fundraiser to raise monies to bring home their blessing from over seas. I felt that I had to purchase a shirt and help this family.

It is just a weird feeling, but I HAD to do it. The shirt is beautiful and has a wonderful meaning..."Love is not a color". This is so true and if so many others could realize this our world would be a much more peaceful and wonderful place now and for our children.

I just want to add, that we get asked alot, "so are you guys done?" and my response is always, "NO". I do not have the "done" feeling. I feel that if there is a child out there that is ment to be with our family, than they will come to us. So "no" we are not done, just sitting back enjoying our girls and excited to see what the future has in store for us.